114 // I’ve Been Tired

Something’s wrong. I’ve been tired since Sunday at least. The kind of tired that lives in your mind not your body. The kind of tired that blends the days together and keeps you in a fog. The kind of tired that leaves you irritable and unable to accomplish anything. Sure you can show up. You can go through the motions but you can’t make decisions, you can’t figure it out.

I’m trying things. Coffee isn’t doing the trick anymore so I have to get more sleep, better sleep. I’m going to go to bed earlier on work nights, no matter what. I’m going to limit myself to one TV show in the evening and read before bed instead. I’m going to get outside more and walk during the day, no matter what. I’m going to give myself permission to take a short nap when I need to. I’m going to use earplugs at night and make sure my phone’s ringer is off.

It’s a lot to change but most of them are habits I had but simply wasn’t diligent about.

At the same time, I want to acknowledge that this may not be simply and sleeping problem. There may be more going on and this may be something to talk to my doctor about.

These entries are inspired by Thord D. Hedengren


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Lisa Marie Blair

Painfully aware. Profoundly afraid. Perpetually falling in and out of love with humanity. She/They.