168// Manually Adjusting

Today I am grateful for:

  1. Guilt free time. It seems like I’m only ever doing what I don’t want to do and I’m forever trying to convince, manipulate, or force myself to “do the work”. Today was easier. Maybe instead of telling myself what I need to do, I should just sit down and trust I will find my way to what needs to be done.
  2. Water. I’ve been drinking bottles and bottles of it and feeling really good about it. I’m grateful for the reminders on my phone and smartwatch to “drink water my friend” and the effect it has on suppressing my appetite and my compulsion to eat when bored.
  3. A new me. I forget sometimes how much progress I have made, how strong I am, how self aware, selfless, and smart I’ve grown to be until I hear others talk about themselves and their opinions. Comparison can be heart wrenching sometimes, but it can also be a kind of confirmation of how far you have some.

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Lisa Marie Blair

Painfully aware. Profoundly afraid. Perpetually falling in and out of love with humanity. She/They.

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